Confusion #2 Poem by Doodle Bug

Confusion will still grip us even when we're sure of the others feelings. Im still unsure how i feel i love n crave him. Near me. When hes gone i feel incomplete n wen hes here im happy but still slightly lonely. No matter how close i am to him he feels far away. Im so scared of him walking away ill do anything to make him happy. All these thoughts form such a crazy labryinth of feelings mingled with confusion that i feel lost even with joy in my heart. I no i hav to b fairer in many ways be uz double standards hurt no matter what ther about but my ugly green eyed monster keeps rearing its head n i try to surpress it. I wanna trust him utterly n completely bt after Being shuke to the core n suffering through so much fear its hard. I believe n hav no reason to think otherwise tht he is mine n mine alone..... But as the comparisons n similarities keep cuming idk wat he lyks...... The individual or the similarities. This is getting harder n idk if it will tear thru the subconsious n cause caos or stay as quiet thoughts but regardless i trust him n wanna b his n stay at his side him my poppa n me his 'old lady' so well c...