Dear Painkiller© Poem by Tsbiyah Bat Yah

If I could bottle up the feeling of you on my skin I would give up on all of my other vices
yes including the weed
because you're the only thing that could ever get me high enough to remember what I felt like outside of this body!
My quick fix
My Acetaminophen
I feen more of my Morphine and for once I get to taste self worth
and god
and free
and joy.
I'm HOOKED!
You're like a drug/
too much ain't enough/
don't take it away you'll be killing my buzz/
and to kick this habit would require me to jeopardize my hope for more.
for better.
My faith in we
in us
in all that's good in the world.
I want to forever overdose on your smile.
Your warmth.
Your light.
I want to shoot your love in my veins
and I don't want to feel a damn thing else that isn't this feeling you give me deep down in the pit of my stomach
when you tell me you got me
and I believe you
and trust that.
That feeling that heats my body like I just got caught in lie but it's fear
because I need you
and you know that
so I'm sitting here sweating like I just popped a Molly
and giggle because that's YOUR NAME.