Deep Inside Of Me Poem by Chanelnichelle Cook

I've lost who i am
I dont no how my hearts become so broken
But this time i wont be scilenced
This loves gone so wrong
But this time im not afriad...

As im laying here in the darkness
Im loosing my mind
Nothings making sence...

But after all that you put me through
You would think that i would despise you
After all the stealing and the cheating
i wanna say thank you
thanks for making e a fighter...

I should have known
You wouldnt be mine
That you wouldnt be my soldier
I should have known that you wouldnt fight for me...

I wish i could have stopped
Because it hurt so much
But these battle scars....

You tryed to keep me from seeing the truth
But in the end i was able to see you
Now you can hate me all as fight to the end....

Ill keep quite
You wont hear a thing
Ive made myself a promise
you wont see me cry until i make you...

You will never know what hit you
Untill i let you...

This is such a let down
Insead of letting me down
you promised to hold me up....

Im not afraid
Not anymore...

Forever was a long time
But i wouldnt have minded standing by your side...

But excuse me as I brake down your walls
And move past the feeling of your skin
Im going to move like a tank
im going to fight to the end
Go ahead and tell me what you think...

I'll be here when you think your all alone
My loves a disease
Im underneth your skin
You'll never know what hit you
Im tired of being a lover to your nightmear...

This time you cant kiss it all better
You cant kiss my face
And say everthings going to be alright
That everything will fall in place...

This ship is sinking
You used to make everything okay
I can not stop this sickness taking over...

I've lost who i was from the start
All I know is this is the ending beging
You've let me go so I'll run
Theres know light and theres never been a sun
How coldn't I see what I've become...

Yesterday i died
His love now will wander
I've fallen out your sun's light
Now you cant see me...

We were one of the same
This time you cant make everything okay
And you cant take the pain away...

I would have given anything
To wake up next to that smile
I wouldnt have minded...

Ill make you see
Youll never know what hit you
You will never will see it was me...

~Midnight Angel