First Goodbye Poem by Kimberly Lindsey

I don’t know how to tell you this,
I don’t want you to cry.
But I have to live for me now,
I don’t want to live a lie.

I told you not to buy that ring,
I told you I don’t deserve it.
But you did not listen,
You bought it, to what purpose?

I have tried so hard to tell you,
This love is not going to work.
But you, you try to make it,
And it makes me ill, it’s too much work.

Every time you talk about us,
And the future we have together.
Have you not noticed, are you in denial
I get nauseous, dizzy, oh so sick.

I can not go on this way,
I do not love you, as you love me,
I have tried and I have tried
But it is not going to happen.

You are a good person,
Funny, a friend…..
But not my lover,
I am sorry this has to end.

There were too many signs,
But I let you talk me around them
I should have stood firm then
And not let my soft heart bend.

It would have hurt us both a lot less
Had we listened then
Instead of going through
Another divorce, but this we must do.

I will not live my life
Worrying if you will have a job,
And wondering where the money went,
What did you spend it on?

Go find your Gia,
For she, is not I.
I can’t be, don’t want to be,
Her or your wife.