Forbidden Love Poem by John Silvis

Creativity has it's own life,
Longing to be free,
It's something I must do,
Though you may never see,

Do these words mean I'm crazy?
It may be that I am,
I just let my feelings show,
But control myself; I can

How should I act around you?
What am I allowed to say?

I want to be close to you,
We have a connection,
But life says no for us,
So I must accept its rejection,

I want to know you,
It's clear for you to see,
You can be my friend,
Are you thinking of me?

Maybe I'm being presumptuous,
Something I need to be told,
Are you just being polite?
Am I being too bold?

I've thought more than this,
It's hidden from your view,
I want to tell you what I think,
But can I trust you?

I can be your confidant,
Your secret's safe with me,
You'll never have to wonder,
If I'll reveal for all to see,

My age a curse,
Yet equally a blessing,
I may be too young for you,
But I'll never keep you guessing,

I am not unemotional,
I let my feelings roll,

I know who I am,
And sadness is part of life,
I can live within it,
I will remove the knife,

It's because I believe in me,
Regardless of who says what,
I am very strong inside,
No matter how deep the cut,

But your beauty cannot be ignored,
Even though that is what's required,
My fantasy world, unrequited but alive,
Focuses on you, something to be admired,

It may be you are appalled,
You didn't ask for this,
You have chosen your path,
And wish to follow your bliss,

Confusing as it can be,
It's obviously the wrong time,
It doesn't help your life in any way,
I'll never say you're mine,

True as this may be,
I still think you're great,
But I will leave you alone,
And accept my life's fate,

In a different world we can thrive,
Seeing through our mind's eye,
It doesn't have to be about the flesh,
We will never have to lie,

It may be that close friendship,
Spiced with coy flirtations,
Is all that we will ever have,
No matter our inner sensations,

It is okay for you to know,
That I think you are so attractive,
I will continue on with my life,
And not be so reactive,

But if you need to confide,
And tell me what you think,
I will gladly lend an ear,
From the cup of honesty; we will drink.

Do not be afraid of closeness,
Outside of your spoken vows,
You can reveal yourself to others,
It can be managed with what life allows,

But it's back to the reality,
Of what it all means,
I'll go back to my world,
And see you in my dreams.