I Am Scared Of Not Missing You. Poem by John Silvis

I'm scared of not missing you anymore, I'm scared to live that day.
I'm scared my mind will erase the memory of the day I had to go away.
I put a lot of trust in you, you say that you're different.

I guess I should've told you that I'm really sensitive, though I try to act like I don't mind, that night I still relive.
I'm ashamed because I know I love you way more than you like me,
That I cry for you when you're not here so much that I can't see.

This headache just won't go away its been here since I left without even a goodbye,
Though loud yet meek, though screaming yet bleak, this loss truly feels like death.
I pray you don't feel these words are a stretch because we've shared limited time,
or that I'm completely insane for tatting your name, assuring I've lost my mind.

Well the truth is that you are for me, and I've known it since we met.
But there's something you just have to get.
I don't want anyone else, there is no one as special as you,
I'll build you up and give you my heart to cradle in your hand.

I admit I am attached baby, and dangerously its true.
I pray you never leave my side though physical I can take,
but mentally please stay awhile and never leave this place.

365 days is the longest fight I feel I've already been beat.
That waiting is indeed the hardest game and I've just succumbed to defeat.
Though unspoken yet chanted, and rough yet romantic, this love was written in the stars.

I don't know what you feel inside, or if this load you can carry.
If once you're out you'll go buck wild or settle down and marry.
I feel we'll be getting to know each other more so here than before,
So open and let me in because it's you that I adore.