Forever Banned Poem by shannon curtis

Is there a God up there like everyone says there is? If that is so then
why does' nt he care. Did I get put aside for some reason I don't uderstand? Was I forever denied his love, forever banned? I must
have done something wrong in another life maybe, before I even arrived as a tiny baby? I know I'll always walk alone, no more footprints in the sand because I am forever banned.

Seems peace and happiness are for other people to have, they get to smile and laugh enjoying just being alive everyday. Safe in the knowledge that they will always be okay. I really wish that was me,
I would have the biggest smile you ever did see.

Instead of this total loss of hope, this total inability to even cope with
a life that can never be good, no matter what it says in their book. God can't possibly love everyone the same because there would't be anyone to blame.