Had To Be Written Had To Be Wrote Poem by nicky joyce

My hearts sinking and my gut feelings growing
Telling me something what it is so unknowing
Listening hard but try to ignore
The demons are banging against my door
Past creeps in and so does yours
What do I think should I just ignore
Switching myself off and shutting down
I don't want to sit here with a frown
I`m normally smiling and full of joy
Knowing you was what I choose to explore
Taking the step and right foot forward
Hoping that my minds just over exploding
Waiting and hanging on feeling lost tired and worn
Why am I like this where is my walls
The ones that protected me the ones that didn't have doors
I see people and I stare am I jealous of them
Why is it I stop and glare
Feeling anxious lost and confused
Then it all makes sense straight out of the blue
The butterflies the feeling of living
Making me realise I'm someone to believe in
I can handle the hiding the shutting off
Do I wish to be more yes I do
Tell me who wouldn't look at you
But it`s as it is and that's the truth
So my lips will be sealed but forever I shall wish.