Headless Poem by Leon Agnew

To T.S., a friend
Who I suppose, in the end,
Gave up and died,
That it, on the inside.

I always was a fool,
And now I get what's coming to me.
Everything I do seems to fail now.
I should've never left you.
You gave me guidance
And kept my head up
And kept me alive.
I loved you and you loved me.
But even so, I just can't see
Everything you've done for me.
Everything you gave for me.
All the love I you had
Is now wasted
Gone
Dead.
Turned loose on boys who never
Ever will truly deserve it.
Now clearly I see my fault
Now I see I've spilled the salt
And I'm afraid you'll never change
And he's afraid you'll never change.
I still need you,
But I can't have you,
So now I'll cut my life away.
Now I'll stop thinking anymore.
And spend my days alone in sorrow
Waiting idly for the morrow
Because I should've never left you
Because now you're ruined and so am I,
Now I've left me just to die.
I took the sword upon my neck
And sent it tumbling down.
And now I'm a fool.
I was always a fool.
But before I was a fool who was in love.
Now even that comfort has betrayed me.
And now I'm lying here on the ground.
My brain unplugged
My head unscrewed
I'm only a body.
Headless.