How To Love Poem by Chaotic Life aka Curly Mer

How do you love someone
if you can't even love yourself?
How is that everytime I look in the mirror
my reflection is breaking my view
all I see is an ugly piece of nothing
looking angrily at me.
Even when I smile to myself,
all I see is hatred starting me right through the eyes.
Why is that?
Why is it that I can never talk positively about myself,
and hate when other's brag on about themselves?
Why is it that my confidence level is lower
that the brain activity of a dead person?
Why is it that when people try to help me,
I push them away and end up hating myself even more?
Why?
How come a girl like me,
who finds love in everything around her,
can not even love the thing that is always with her,
How do I love myself if all I feel is hate?