I Am Afraid Poem by Joshua McKinney

Is it sad to admit that I tear up after dropping you off
Hell, I was tearing up just being beside you tonight
Because everytime I see you now
I fall more in love with you again
But it's not like the first time
It's ten times stronger and its so hard sometimes
So hard to put those feelings to the side
Because what I feel doesn't matter right now
But I have to admit, it's hard not to kiss you
When your face is so close to mine
And I know that it's wrong, and I am sorry
When I'm with you I am speechless
So I write what I cannot say
Because it's so hard to speak
With my stomach in these knots
If it bothers you that I have these feelings
Then please let me know
I will never speak again
I would do anything for you
Sometimes that scares me
I almost feel pathetic, for having these thoughts
But I cannot deny this
I'm just rambling now
Better stop before....