I Am The Woman That ''Everyone'' Leaves Poem by Nicole Magincalda

I have never been first, i have always been last, and any ''man'' that ever loved me, is ''now'' in my ''past''! . ''He'' is ''happy'' and married and living the ''life'', he had a girl friend and ''now'' he will make her his ''wife''! . ''When'' i was in love it was ''ever'' so ''right''! , but the man that i picked they just made me ''up-tight''! , i tried to be ''everything''that they ''ever'' wanted! , and with all these ''memmories''! , i am now ''haunted'' by the past that i can ''no-longer'' change, ''god'' how can life be so ''unfair''! .''Why'' me this, ''way'' don't you even care? . I was never ''bad'', i alway's did the ''right'' thing, my ''god'' this is a ''nightmare'' a awful dream! . ''Please'' wake me up! . I ''can't'' stay this way, or ''oh'' my ''god'' i will go ''insane''! . I was alway's truthful ''no'' matter what the ''situation'', but it seem's ''everytime'', i was left in ''pure despiration''! , by some man that i talked too! . I alway's spoke the ''truth'' and what did i get? . A ''man'' that is leaving and ''now '' he is ''taken'', by a woman he stoped loving, but could not forsaken! . ''God'' ''please'' help me where are you? . I must carry ''on''! . I told them, i loved them, i told them i cared, but did they beleive me ''no'' they did not care! , they we're lost in there ''dream-land'' of ''lie's'' and ''desception'', ''probably'' lost for their own ''protection''! , from the truth that is ''clear'' that we all ''do'' really ''see''! . That we sometime's can't face, because it is not that ''easy'' a ''thing'' it is ''harder'' and more ''complicated'' than any ''lie'' that is usually almost alway's ''jaded'', and very, very, complicated! . ''Why'' couldn't they beleive me? , what did i do wrong? . I have to ask ''myself'' this ''question'', ''yes'' i really must know! , ''why'' am i this way ''god''? , i want to know! . ''Why'' am i? , ''The woman that ''Everyone'' leave's'', that ''no'' body love's, that ''no'' one beleive's! .