I Dont Know Why Poem by Stella Andrews

I don't ever see him,
I never talk to him,
And i'm suppose to be his girlfriend.

I flirt with other guys,
I look at other guys,
But i have shut down so many for him.

I have had so many chances to get the guys who are famous in my town,
They have all got my number and would text me to hang out in town,
But i've said no every single time.

I have let his harsh words bounce off me like nothing.
I get these feelings sometimes that i am nothing.
Nothing to you.

Do you remember how at the start our cheeks would ache from smiling and laughing so much?
Do you even remember how not even a month ago you told me you loved me sooo much? !
Why the f.uck did i beleieve you? !

I sat in the bath the other night when no one was home,
And i cried and cried and cried, just wishing that someone would come home to hold me.
But i could never show them i'm crying.

I cried for us,
And i cried for what used to be us.
But now that's all gone.

I'm still your girlfriend,
And i know its pointless,
but i'll stay here anyway.
i dont know why