The mask I wear for the whole world to see
The smile I told myself to paint on me
The tears that roll down my very dry cheek
Ill never show anyone for that makes me weak
But somebody broke me they looked past the guise
The one I wore every day in which I ran away to hide
They told me what I was going through which was all right
I didn’t deny them, didn’t put up a fight
They said someone hurt me and in my heart left a scar
So that when I sang Gods presence didn’t move to far
That I was used to being in the back round
With no one paying me any attention
That when they praised my family my name they would not mention
And that’s exactly why I put my voice to the side
it wasn’t worth it for my praises were not high
id stand in the center yet feeling alienated
for my personality at the time was not stated
And id wave my hand and “yell what about me”
I sang with my heart couldn’t you see
But they only looked for the voices that had a nice sound
And not the girl that sang for Jesus all the way in the back round
But they took that away that smile that I used to have
Why sing for Jesus if it made me feel bad
for no one new what I was going through not even you
My parents my loved ones I was hoping you’d see through
The laughter the smile the voice that I had
Didnt you see me lost didnt u see me sad?
My life has been good I can not deny
But the fact is that I’ve been living a lie
It hurts me to the bone that they dont see the real me
The shy one the other one the one that is mean
And ya that was me that’s my definition
The comments the faces hav left me affected
What the people want is what my family has
But for me well pathetic and sad
For I hold grudges for things that don’t even mean
But after my sister left I was forced to sing
In church in concerts and even youth camp
And I was scared cause it was my turn to shine
To stand up and finally be a leader
For her courage was much deeper
She’d never get nervous and never wanna cry
For when I knew I had to sing id yell at god why
But id think again and say I asked for this
For all eyes on me the feeling of being famous
And still after everything was done
I still felt the same no feeling of shining like the sun
For I realized that if god isn’t in my life when I sing that theres no point
No presence will fall no one will rejoice for only a heart full of gods love can sing and heal someones hurt
so ill sing for Jesus and thru him ppl will convert
Ill make a differnce in at least a couple pplz lives
Ill sing to heal me so i can finally make it to the other side!
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem