I Guess I'Ll Do It Today Poem by Desiree Whitamore

so i sat down across from you
and i told you what was what
i let you make your decision
before i started standing up.

i know my face was bursting
with the red of a girl whos scared
and as i caught your sly half smile
i realized what was here

and i saw you take my hand
but the numbness pulled me through
and i felt my strength give in
and give up the fight to you

and i could live so freely
and i could be alive
and all it took was to face my fears
and look you in the eyes.

before i got the nerve
i thought: maybe i like the chase
but as i got closer
i knew thats not the case.

but then i open my eyes
it was all a blurry dream
and now im left to find
the pieces of reality.

yes its true you look at me
like noone else does
and its true i look at you
like i know that theres an us

but im still way too shy
and i need a little help
maybe you should make the first move
before i scare myself

and i know that you'll be gone
if i don't do it soon
so i have to take this chance
and risk it all for you.

ive got to gather up that courage
and realize all the risks
put myself out there in a such a way that
i cant think of this.

and i've got to be embarrassed
and see that i might be wrong
but i want to know what you think now
and make myself be strong.

from a girls perspective i'm too scared
and from a guy like you its tough.
because what if i've been taking it the wrong way
what if i call your bluff?

i gotta step up to the plate
breathe, smile, and just say
this is what i think
i'll do it today.