I Hate This Thought Poem by Jenah Bergman

this thought haunts me everyday
every moment of the day
non stop
its al; ways there
i try to make it go away
but it wont
it wont ever go away
i come close all the time
to harming myself
but i stop myself
i dont know how
but for some reason
last night
i made it
i didnt think i would be hear today
but i am
and i am glade i am
i cant put my brother and sister threw ny more pain
they have enough as it is
i hate the thought
and somedays the thought is there more then other days
i cant mess up my life
i have done to much damage to myself already
no more scres
no more hospitals
no more attempts of suicide
no more
because i have done enough
i make it threw the day one hour at a time.
the thought is there now
but i am dealing with it
i write this poem so my brain will know that i dont want to hurt myself anymore
eventualy as i keep controling my brain with this stuff
the thought wont be as strong
i love my life
and im not going to mess it up any more
goddbye to you my friend