I Just Wish You Can Understand Me Poem by mona martinez

my body is numb,
i feel dead inside,
i feel like i don't belong,
like i'm a watse of space,
just getting in the way,
i don't want this life,
and yet i can't excape,
what am i living for?
lost for words,
body shaking,
can't stay in the moment,
it's as if somebody pulling me,
and i can't excape,
i can't come out,
i'm trapped in a universe,
that sucks if you ask me,
everybody looking at me,
as if i was the bad one,
i was the vitim,
what did i do wrong?
i tried to speak up,
but i have no say,
i'm dealing with stuff,
that i did not ask for,
did you not see tears down my face,
when you pushing my head towards you,
but you still did it,
you still force me on you,
you didn't care that i was begging,
begging for you to stop,
but you kept making me,
the harder i cry,
the more you would fight,
it made you mad,
when i resisted,
but i was a kid,
i didn't have the strength to fight you off,
i just cried,
i rock myself just to calm down,
it the only way i can get you off of me,
you deal with yourself,
and your lies everybody believe,
you selfish prick,
i was just a child,
how could you do that to me,
and expect me to just forget?