I Love You So Little Poem by Arun Maji

Let me tell you
how little I love you.

May be I don't love you.
Yet, I can't stand a moment without you.
As if I am so numb,
so empty without you!

Without you-
the wind stops whistling
the river stops dancing
the birds stop singing.
But if I see your smile in silvery moon
the wind whistles again
the river dances again
the birds sing again.
As if they too are dead without you.

May be I don't love you.
Loving is so complex!
A humble boy of my stature
would never know what love is!

I wrong so often,
lose you so often.
But if I lose you, I seek you.
More I lose you, more I seek you.
I seek you until I find you.

Because I don't love you
I lose you again.
Because I lose you
I seek you again.

It's weird that I am still a child!
I always play hide and seek with you
I always dance between
loving you and not loving you.
Loosing,
and then seeking you is an addiction!
I hurt when I lose you
I heal when I find you.

Tormenting myself with
hurting and healing is an addiction.
All this I do
because I don't love you.

Because I don't love you
I want to love you.
Because I want to love you
I seek you.

Because I seek you
may be I love you-
a little though.

I wish I were air of your breath
then
I could have loved you little more
if God permits
next life, I shall be air of your breath.

© Arun Maji
Painting: Eugene De Blaas