I Miss Him Poem by Broken Soul

My heart is pounding
I cant stop thinking about him
I cant stop thinking that he probably aint ever going to come back

I miss him so much
I cant help but be mad at her
For she is the reason why he left me

I love him
How can he not love me?

He's my father
I'm his real daughter
She aint
How can he leave me?

How can a father deny his own daughter?
How can I not be apart of his family?
We both have the same damn blood in us!
How can he deny that?

Why is that he loves his step kids more than his real kids?
Are we just not good enough?
Am I not good enough to be is daughter?
Am I not smart enough?
Am I not pretty enough?

I remember the last time I saw him
I think that it was 5 years ago
I was mad at him
He didnt come with me when I had surgery
And he Promised!

I remember I yelled at him
I needed him there
I remember that I wouldnt say goodbye
I wouldnt hug him
I wouldnt kiss him goodbye either.

Is it because of me that he's gone?
Is it because all three of us was mad at him?
Is it because none of us said goodbye to him before he left?

I still cant help think that its all my fault that he left
That its my fault why both him and my mom left

Everybody says that its not my fault at all
Everybody says that it's their loss
But is it really their loss?
Or is it just mine?