I Should Have Known Poem by chidiebere franklin

I want to write, scream and shout
But I'm sitting her with this doubt
I hate you for what you've done
But I love you for what you've helped me become
A strong woman who will not put her foot down
My mind keeps replaying how you played me like a stupid clown
You say I messed up that I was wrong
I knew what was going on all along
I sat there night after night wondering where you were
I should've known you were with her
Holding her the way I should've been held
Now I just wish you'd both burn in hell
I should've seen the emptiness in your eyes
But like an idiot I kept believing your stupid lies
You've scared me for life
How could you do this to your wife
A woman who gave you everything
But you just went out and sold our wedding rings
I see how much to you this marriage was worth
That you just throw me out in the dirt
For the next man I won't be able to open my heart
It doesn't matter how long we've been apart
The way that I loved you I will never love again
I still ask myself why did this have to end