I Talk To Myself, Poem by kaavyaa kriday

Asking questions, one after the other.
I try to answer them all,
But nowhere do I find the success.

I talk to you,
Imagining you in my thoughts,
Believe me I find it so real,
As if it's really you sitting right across.

So much do I have to say?
Yet somehow I go silent,
So much do I want to shout?
Yet I hide it into my tears, defeated…
So much do I want to slap you?
But my hands, trembling, frozen…
So much do I want to love you?
But my heart, heavy …. Cheated…..

The years we built together,
The plant together we planted,
Why suddenly u felt…
I wasn’t the real Friend that u wanted.

That level of comfort,
That easiness, that smoothness,
Where no word was left unsaid,
Why suddenly u felt…
That I will not understand….

That childish behavior,
At times you and at times me,
Teaching each other,
Remember? ? … We both behaved alike…! !
Why suddenly u felt…?
That you are no more a child,
Why did you let that kiddo you die?

I am sorry I cannot accept,
The death of the child within each of us…
I still talk to them
And I find them very much alive…..

That sadness which at times appeared,
We turned them into smiles… 
Holding each others hands we moved on,
Together we walked miles…
Why suddenly you felt,
That my hand was not the one…..
And left me all alone….

Let me admit to you my dear friend,
Living without you… I cannot imagine…
My heart feels weak without your presence…
My eyes…tears.... Posing silence…

I request you, I beg you…
Please don’t leave me…
Please don’t go….