I Use To Be.. Poem by Rae Gatto

I use to be lonely
I use to be sad
lost within my own world
I started to Break
The bad part about this
I can not remember the day
it happened...
My world slowly started to disintegrate


My happiness ran away
I didnt deserve it anyway
for my deep dark secret was to big for me
but I knew I had to keep it in
for no one would care
I then realized I didnt matter
I started to become distant
for my friends and family turned their backs on me


The month and a day less then a week of my 15th birthday
He walked in my life but wouldnt leave
I didnt understand, why me?
how could he love such a low-life
I was blinded for I could not believe
my life was finally turning
my Happiness found it's way back to where it belongs
I was starting to open my eyes


He made me see the truth
for I could no longer feel so alone
in fight between life and death
I had a partner in crime
someone to help fight the monsters and make them disappear
he rebuilt my confidence
showed me how much I really do mean
all my scars healed


the thing beyond belief
is that he is still here
to show me the light in this dark hole
this dark hole I'm still trying to get out of
even though nobody believed he could do it
or that we would never last
for he had proven me, my opinion was wrong
not everyone will leave me


I use to be lonely
I use to be sad
lost within my own world
I started to Break
He walked in my life but wouldnt leave
my life was finally turning
and I know now
I am not alone as long as he is right beside me.