I'Ve Always Been This Girl Poem by ESPN CHICK

I've always been this girl who runs away
Runs away from everything and everyone
And I don't know why

I guess I am scared to face the answers of reality
Although reality has already hurt me
And it hurt me badly

Leaving me with a broken body
Bruises inside all over
Guess I will never know how it feels to be whole

I've always been this broken girl
Has nobody ever even noticed
What a surprise I'm invisible to the whole world

I've always been this invisible girl
This invisible broken girl who figured out
That crying is sometimes her lullaby that gets her fast to sleep

Has no one ever noticed the look in my eyes
The look of pain and wanting to die
No cause everyone just walks the other way

Not paying any attention to me whatsoever
That doesn't bother me anymore
Cause I know that no one else matters

In this fate in time I know that I have me, myself, and I
Because people says the wrong things
And they think I need help

Why do I need help anyways
I swear I'm okay
Nothing I can't handle

Cause I've always been this broken girl
Always been alone and in pain
Has no one ever noticed

So I can handle anything
I'm tougher than what anyone thinks
Cause I've been through more than you'll ever know

The only way I can pour my heart and soul is in my writings
Cause I know no one else will ever understand
They will just say all the wrong things

They say that they are worried
After all everyone that surrounds me as helped this pain
But they will never know cause I know they would deny

I've always been hurting deep inside
This pain has always been there
And its finally turning numb after all these years

So I can handle myself and this pain
I can handle being alone
Cause I've always been the girl who has always been alone

The girl who has always been dying inside
Crying for help but I don't want help anymore
Cause I know everyone won't help me the way I need them too

That's why I don't talk to them
Cause I know I'm better off alone
I've always been this broken girl but no one has never noticed


January 27,2008