If I Could Turn Back Time (C) 1-10-2011 Poem by Zahir Kijani

Personally I’d start off with my introduction to you
And tell you the truth of every situation I’m in
I’d hold you close and make sure that we’d see eye to eye
But my only trouble would be in knowing where to begin

I couldn’t fathom expressing to you the future events as they are
Believing that you could understand what it feels to leave your heart in pain
You didn’t know or see past the smile and smooth way I spoke to you
Flattering you with my mellow allure but mostly you were speakin to Rain

Your smooth chocolate skin was a necessity to indulge my inner cravings
And openly I uttered the desires that I felt in my mind
The fantasies erotic in essence but truthful in an emotional stand
It wasn’t an empty hearted want but a most loving design

But you kept your stand leaving body like the Ark of Covenant
Only viewable to you and God and the men that could heal
I had no problem with your position and I respect your decisions
Even with a tease I still became aroused through the simplest feel

In your mind our only obstacle was for you to comfortably open your walls
Let down your bars and allow me to enter your sanctuary of pleasure
To allow me to declare an open bond signified by the flag placed on the surface
You’d open up your deepest secrets in exchange for my treasures

As easy as it seemed you never really knew the course of my mind
The darkness that lurked in my soul and caused my feelins to stray
Through another alliance born, you were blinded to my other affairs
And I hold true to everything that I’ve done to you to this day

I always tried to be one hundred percent honest to you but I entirely failed
I dreamed of the day where you realized that I was lying to you
Not through fictitious tales and made up stories did my dishonesty place
But when I didn’t tell you that my heart was being divided in two

I swear I wish I made it clear to you from the beginning
But clearly I wanted to hide the evidence like wearing a glove
But a somber display of hurt and pain won’t change all that took place
Although my dishonesty I honestly meant every moment I was expressing my love