Intentions Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

I'm so alive.
Straight from the inside.
Doors closed.
Oh well figured it wouldn't last.
But still it was a blast.
But now I'm moving on.
Not wasting anymore time trying to convince of you of how I feel.
Let's keep it simple.
Let's untangle this long knotted web.
Getting down to business.
Keeping you at arm's length of a distance.
I'll continue to help you.
But no more overt gestures.
No more picking up the pieces when you're utterly broken.
I can't help you in that way.
I'm not emotionally built for it.
So now that you're motivated what will you do.
Get right back into what took you down?
Well when that's happens, I don't want to be the one your lean on.
Not if you're not all in.
Until then I decided we will be just friends.
For me it was an easy decision.
I love you, but I don't want to get mix up in that drug seen.
My life is complicated enough.
So once again I'm going to do what's good for me.
We all have choices.
We all have voices.
Self preservation.
My job is way too important to me.
And I'm choosing it over a bad habit.
And I don't feel bad about it.
Guilt requires a promise or somekind of commitment.
And there wasn't any.
Other then offer to help.
And that still stands.
Beautifuly indifferent.
Emotionally detached.
The connection has faded.
I hope you don't feel jaded.
I never lied, just changed my intention.
Can you really blame me for it?
I don't want to be swept up in an undisclosed sting.
Not when I'm so close to changing so many things.
The road not taken, is the one I'm now taking.