January 4,2015 Poem by Bunny Monster716

You're getting by, getting by
You cant stop shouting to the night sky
and you're getting by but dont want to, wont admit how or why
You're on a path to meet the devil again
Same place you'll stay stuck with your dark demon
The devil and you will share a grin and it begins to spin and you're spun
Out of control demons have you stunned
with darkness so thick its holding you down, cant run
cant speak or talk so you stay stuck under the weight until its done
It finishes you, you finish it, wasnt that fun?
I reach for the sky again and I know I've lost so much faith so I cave
Im caving in from the inside out, doesnt that make sense? I'm a slave
I cant smile without it feeling fake, and each day I wake I put on my face,
show them I'm brave
Am I even fooling anybody? I think the answer is so clear, the reasons I rant and rave
The reasons I'm looking to the heavens I know he got in but theres been no sign from him and....
I need to know.. Can I be saved?
Is it too late? Has my path been paved?
I've been hollowed out but the souls widdler he's been using a spoon
And I fear if I cant find answers I'll be lost forever and very soon.
I need to know I look to the moon the time has passed so fast its already noon
Wish I could grow instead of show the progressed lost, the fact that I'm a loon
My eyes have been drawn in more today, looks more like a cartoon
that she's watching now cuz we no longer watch the news
Why did it have to be you, why couldnt I be the one to lose?
Lose my life and my undeserved light, it only seems fair
I'm staring at your chair and its noon again and how long have I been there?
I wonder if they've noticed such a long stare or is it me who ignores their glares?
I want them to care, I cant have both either I want them to or I don't.. Are you there?

Now it's dark again and I passed the room and I have to look to try and see
As before looking at the chair I was imagining you there but I wish it wasnt me imagining
I woke up I dont know how long I've been asleep my days get blended but I see you in my dreams
Its happened twice now and that's better than nothing
I'm losing faith and touch with reality, I'm searching for answers not liking what I'm finding
Reaching to the sky cuz I feel sometimes like I'm almost there but the earth and I have a binding
like acidic chains around my ankles to remind me how much it hurts, makes me stare at the truth I act like I'm not minding
Acting but its slowly blinding me
Unravel me out of this mess I need to get my head out of the white and black fog and hide
I need to get away before its too late I take it back, come back, I'm not ready to see why
I'm not ready to cry or consider time let me keep my lie because I'll never be satisfied
I cant take the life, to live, to be, to loose a battle slowly, to become weak, to die
No I, I simply refuse this lie im so confused why must I continue to deny
its what is and what i have to accept but no I wont nothing can justify
How I get by..
Im getting by, I'm getting by
Each night I'll continue to cry shouting at the poisoned sky
I'm on my way to see my friend, my demons, and the devil, tonight
I refuse to say goodbye
For now I'm getting by