Im not ever here, I don't exist unless I exist in someone else
Im a reflection of everyone ive encountered, I eat their words like air
I am never present, I dissolve in their commands, I do as I'm told.
They like it that way, be a good obedient dog, stay they say. And I do.
I remember everything that happens, as if it were happening to someone else-
Realizing it was me all along, I shatter in millions of small mirrors and cut them in return
I never felt anything but physical pain, while my mind was in their eyes-
They look so frightening, it thrilled me, and I let them do whatever they wanted to
I felt my lips mouth ‘stop', but my voice couldn't follow
I had no air inside, and everything was buzzing like white noise from an empty room
His words were buzzing, his hands were numbing, his eyes were cunning
The pain was sharp and I felt it deep into my bones, up into my face, ringing in my head
I couldn't see- maybe my eyes were close, maybe my heart was closed
He left me-a used empty body back into reality, I looked around and nothing made sense
I even noticed the small cracks in stones and felt that something was cracked in me
I remember everything. All the time. All the days and hours after.
Now I can hear it all, when I couldn't before and its loud in my head I'm afraid others can hear it too
I look at them. If only I had the voice to ask for help.
But I believe I deserved it, no one would understand it.
I remember it all the time, in large crowds, in frightening eyes
I wish it all went away, maybe if I went away.
This poem is TREMEMDOUS. It is so good, you can follow and feel all the emotions that are in it. FANTASTIC! ! !
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Please don't go away, your poetry is too good, it goes from the mind to the heart like a torrent.