Life Is A Game I Can Never Win... Poem by amanda garcia

Why does the world go on without me?
I want to catch up[ but it wont let me.
I am stuck in a never ending cycle,
I am still on phase one
And life has already won!

Then why do I continue to play?
Because I am determined to do
What I need to do to win.
To suckerpunch them in the mouth
When I reach the finish line
But the red line that
Is supposed to be a finish line
Instead I see the face I've come to beat
And the scars I thought
I left behind a long time ago
Then I truely see what I have come to be.

I dont want to see reality
So I blind my eyes with lies
To shield me from the truths'
Blinding rays.
Then all the people that were helping me
Fade away
And still they move on without me.

Why does the world go on without me?