Life Of Fear Poem by Keegan Moore

My eyes are swollen







I cannot see,







I must be stupid







I must be bad,







What else could have made







My daddy so mad?







I wish I were better







I wish I weren't ugly,







Then maybe my mommy







Would still want to hug me.







I can't speak at all







I can't do a wrong







Or else I'm locked up







All the day long







When I awake I'm all alone







The house is dark







My folks aren't home.







When my mommy does come







I'll try and be nice,







So maybe I'll get just







One whipping tonight







Don't make a sound!







I just heard a car







My daddy is back







From Charlie's Bar.







I hear him curse







My name he calls







I press myself







Against the wall.







I try and hide







From his evil eyes







I'm so afraid now







I'm starting to cry.







He finds me weeping







He shouts ugly words,







He says its my fault







That he suffers at work.







He slaps me and hits me







And yells at me more,







I finally get free







And I run for the door.







He's already locked it







And I start to bawl,







He takes me and throws me







Against the hard wall.







I fall to the floor







With my bones nearly broken,







And my daddy continues







With more bad words spoken.







'I'm sorry! ', I scream







But its now much too late







His face has been twisted







Into unimaginable hate.







The hurt and the pain







Again and again







Oh please God, have mercy!







Oh please let it end!







And he finally stops







And heads for the door,







While I lay there motionless







Sprawled on the floor.







My name is ryan






And I am in the grade of three,







Tonight my daddy







Murdered me.