Lifeless Living Poem by wild fire

Your heart beats wildly,
as we both lie awake.
Hugging me to you,
afraid to let go.

Keep your grasp, love
I might slip away
silence is your response
and i accept it fully

i love you,
can you hear me?
No answer as you stare
at the ceiling.

I get up and walk about the room
you lay there quietly
my favorite mug serves as a companion
on our deck filled with hot tea

A deer walks silently across the lawn
and I wish you cared about life enough
to take joy in this
but you dont

Pieces of the puzzles fell away
and you are a stranger who I live with
your hugs and kisses have faded
and you laughter is just an echo

My mug shatters on the deck
and i startle the deer as well as myself
I try to pick up the pieces and
my hand bleeds

I cry for my hands, my favorite mug,
but most of all for you.
You can not hear my sobbing
and if you do you are immune to compassion

I wrap my hand with a dish towel
and I hear you stir
So i hide in the pantry.
and watch you go on to the deck.

You call my name
and see the blood.
I see the fear in your eyes
and I realize you still care.

I walk outside and you
hug me tightly to you
my blood staining your tee shirt
but you dont care

you smooth my hair
and whisper and apology
and the pain in my hand is melted away
and a smile curves my lips

I look to the stars,
and thank God for this night
because tomorrow could have been lost
to lifeless living.

but today we take our chances
and share a long awaited kiss
love has found us again
and i'm glad that you want to live again