Living Without Her. Poem by Armando Samuels

We wake up in the morning together
and its not the same.
We pretend we don't see each other.
We pretend this is not in vain

We are committed to each other
So lets not pretend this is just a flick
Cause I am your dude
And you are my chick

My morning cigarrete is an excuse
And excuse to hide and get away from you.
But you hug me gently
You Kiss my chest and Im all yours.

Cause your lips are way too familiar
And your sent is like old wine
I smell it and I don't like it
But I close my eyes and I make it mine.

Because as much as I want to quit you.
I can't
because I'm not me without you.
And you have made me who I am.

Your voice is what keeps me going
you talk me up the ledge
you keep me motivated
you make me sign my pledge.

But I've become codependent
I feel more like your slave
Its an abusive relation
That makes me feel safe

But I need to learn to live without you
I need to learn to move on
Cause were not good for each other
And I can't live with this bond

Now I sit in a bar
Building myself up
Happy that this happened
Happy that we broke up.

What was her name, the bartender asks
As he gets me a beer.
I loved her dearly, I tell him

And her name was Fear.