Lost Poem by christie stewart

My life to the outside world
seems perfect and secure
but I myself inside, know
that I'm actually unsure.
Inside I feel the conflict, the turmoil and the hate.
The reason is unclear to me,
I leave everything to fate.
I give advice day in day out
about how their lives will be
that everything happens for a reason,
yet nothings happening for me
I've found myself walking blind, afraid and lost.
I'm scared of things I cannot see and things I do not know
I feel like I'm the rope,
being forced too and fro.
I'm scare of what becomes of me
if I don't' find my way out.
I've never been to this place before
its silent, dark, no voice to shout
I want to see the light shine bright
that light that I once knew
I want to be the girl I was so happy and secure
not this lost, conflicted person
that wanders lost, afraid and unsure.
©️ Christie Stewart 2007