Love Is My Big Mistake Poem by Mohamed ElHallag

Once and again there is something I can't express
It's that thing that we all can sense
It's love..but do I must feel the same
Why is this thing chose me and came

I just gave up for this feeling
I wanted to know more about what I'm with dealing
Then I started to read about love
After reading and knowing about love..I thanked the lord above

So I just kept it inside me
Because I was afraid if she refused me
Three years and I started to run out of patience
I started to think should I tell her if I had the chance

I struggled with myself a lot
Do I have to tell her or not
Unfortunately loving her was much stronger
And I felt I was than ever closer

Here the day came to determine my destiny
I just tried to keep my sanity
I went to her and said what I felt in my core
But she said 'I'm Sorry' and she shut the door


I went home and took some rest
It was my only nest
I woke on the next day at noon
I felt like I was unknown

Two day and I said it's only love and that's all
Why should I feel the way I do
I neglected my feeling and I had to be stiff
After neglecting her I felt like somebody took off a part of my flesh

Then I started to curse love ….. Why love chose me? ?
I feel that I'm caged and I won't be able to be free
I lost my freedom and that's all what I can say
Losing love is what for I pray

After cursing love I had a kind of bad luck
I couldn't get love out of my mind.. I was badly stuck
Karma … that's what came to my mind
Was it trying to give me a clue to something which I can find

But all what I knew.. I can't stand anymore
Love really made me out of control
I trusted love and that was my great mistake
Because I found that love is a one big fake.