Loving A Monster Poem by Somni Bee

It tears me apart,
This feeling I have.
You would call it love.
I call it regret.

The one who I love,
He is not perfect.
Instead, he is far from it.
I'm in love with a monster.

Not one that hides beneath your bed.
Not a shadow lurking in the night.
Not one that chases you in nightmares,
One much more real.

You see, I'm in love with a killer.

Oh it hurts to say.
How it pains me to admit,
But I cannot deny it.
Sadly, I cannot ignore it.

He is both a devil and an angel.
With a silver tongue,
Blood on his hands,
And yet I feel he has a heart of gold.

He feels like a man,
Kills like a monster,
But protects those close to him…
Like an angel.

Is it fear?
Is it hate?
Is it regret, despair or pity I feel?
No, it is love.

I'm drowning.
Drowning in a sea of confusion,
Questions swimming in my head.
When? What? Why? How?

When will it end?
What is this?
Why me?
How?