Mixed Feelings. Poem by Emily Reid

. You’re my best friend and I love you. We were together before but things went too slow. Now, it’s our chance to try again. I will always be your Princess and I know you that will always be my knight, it just seems like your drifting away. When I see you I don’t get that special feeling anymore. I thought we could try being in a relationship again but I think your too good of a friend. I don’t really want a relationship right now, I didn’t even want all of this to happen even though most of it was heaven. Now, if we have to break up and I hurt you again you’ll be sad and so will I and I can’t hurt you ever again. I gave this a try, but I’m falling out of love with you again… You’re my best friend, I knew this wouldn’t work but I‘m glad I gave it a chance. Before I really let go I wanted to try again to see if the feelings would come back. Sometimes they do and sometimes they don’t and when they don‘t I‘m just really uncomfortable.. I know that I care about you because when ever I see you with any other girl I get really jealous. That has to means something, right? Sometimes I don’t know how I’m supposed to be your girl if you hang around every other girl but me. We haven’t talked in about two weeks. I hate getting so jealous though, I lose control sometimes.. I don’t think I want a relationship but I still want you. I know that I still have feelings for you, I just know that things are changing. I think I still love you and I know that you do because of everything you went through to get me back. You’re just not the guy I thought you were. When your high sometimes it’s funny but your not the guy I fell in love with when your high or even sometimes when your not. No more, pot, no more lies, no more not speaking to each other. Just you and me happy together. I’m not sure if you still love me too and I’m so scared… Sometimes though I only see you as my best friend. What does that mean? I know that part of me loves you and always will. I’m so confused and I don’t know what to do. I hate being uncomfortable, especially because you shouldn’t make me feel that way. When it’s just you and me on a date or something and everything is perfect and you say all your sweet little things, I love it. The feelings are definitely there. Maybe I’m just over reacting… I hope that’s it.