My Body Is Love And My Only Purity Poem by hazel jackson

I know being the way that i am is both a blessing and a curse.
To explain its a blessing because of the purity, not many people will say they where happy to let the wrongs take control because being bad is both fun and dangerously addictive and feels so good.
Its a curse because of how easily it can be taken away from you and how the people that know or find out about it use what makes you weak, gives you chills while sending excitement to every part of your body just to be the first person you have or to say "ive had what was forbidden a treasure so good and sweet yet so inocent and untouched so....pure and ripingly full of so many juices", ready to flow or so they thought.
They dont see how dirty and unhappy the feeling can leave you right after or even sometimes during the supposed give away of the only bit of pride you had left, the only self confidence, the only thing that made you feel strong....the one and only innocence left the last bare peace of fruit on the tree dangling out in the open yet to be picked.
I cant change what happens or when and this i hate but atleast i can say i learned from my mistakes....and ask for forgiveness.
Ill try and continue to live after excepting all the bad because i know somewhere in my future their is bound to be some good that will help me gain back what i lost or hold on to what i have....my love is not lost not yet but it will be revealed, because my body is love and my only purity.