My Motivation Poem by sophie mew

There's so much I want to explore
But I'm afraid I'll miss your knock on my door
I don't want to be in this world no more
But I need to see your face once more
Losing you shook me to the core
Breathing became a chore

I went too deep and the angels worked against me

I tried to run from him but he caught me

Nothing could heal the pain I felt inside
All I wanted to do was commit suicide
I fought him off and I ran away
My motivation was her name.

Dragging my self some more, trying to get to shore

I don't know what she looks like anymore

they refuse to let me see

When I think of the pride and courage the love and the strength my little girl gave me

I cry for the loss of my first love
A child I carried in my womb

My little hiccup
They took her from me
I miss her undeniably
the love I hold for her is so deep
I love her so much I forget how to breath
My life has never been the same since they took my little girl away
The things I knew before suddenly forgotten when she was taken
I forgot how to wash and clean
I forgot how to smile
I forgot how to dream
But I've always been quite ambitious
They tried to break me but I was too strong
I sometimes I still forget how to breath other times it comes back to me
But my motivation is my daughters name
For although she's not with me
She doesn't even know my name
She is still the only reason I fight to live everyday
I wait for the day for you to say my name
I pine for the day that I hold you in my arms once again
Every day is a day closer to seeing you again
Yet it feels like it's getting further away
I'm so scared you won't want to see me

I'm scared you'll push me away

I hope you love me like you did before they took you away

I will never love you the same, for my love grows for you everyday the hole gets bigger and deeper I will find my way,
back to shore again

I never want to go back to the place
I don't want to fight him again
I have to stop my self from going back to that place
I have to run and hide. The devil won't see me tonight

My motivation is my child's name

I have to see her face once again
I won't stop with out a fight
I live dream and breath for the day I get to call you by your name

Looking int your eyes once again
Saskia, the protector of man kind
But to me you are my guide and you don't even know it.

She will always be my first real love and my first heart break, my first child and my first dream

She will always be perfect to me

The day she was born was my first time experiencing life

The day she was born I lived to breath for her,

I never thought I'd escape my darkest of days, and hellish nights
The thought of going back there scares me every night.

She gave me strength and she wasn't with me.
Motivation was the key
and nothing ever motivated me
until one day a child was born and the gift of motivation was given to me,
saskia your name is the key and you'll always be apart of me