My Only Wealth Poem by Old Rose Celine

You came to this world
When it was beyond my expectation
So sudden yet so awe-inspiring
My heart was overjoyed
The thrill, the delight,
All the mixed emotions
Were so baffling

It was so astounding
For those eight months that
You were inside my precious womb
All the excitement that
I ever felt was so immense
The rapid heartbeat,
The warmth, the fulfillment
Of my every thought

The intense feeling
Every time I felt your movements
The fondness and meekness
Of my heart each time
You stretch your limbs
So exhilarating, so elating,
Embracing you with
All my love and care

That day when I
Heard your first cry
So soft and innocent
Made me almost cry
With so much affection
Satisfaction, gratification,
Oozing with tears of joy
That my only child was born

Exuding with the brilliance of promise
Bursting with a brighter tomorrow
That my new world had started with
Luster and glowing affinity

I have watched you grow all those years
Notwithstanding the consequences of my mistakes
What matters most is I have you now
So real, so genuine, so alive!

Facing the reality
Boldly nurturing you as much as I could
Raising you alone in my life
Be it done in the most challenging ways
Never in my heart did I betray you
For you are only mine
And will always be in my heart

Food, shelter, clothing
That's all I could give you
Though education is the toughest of them all
You cannot have as much as you want
Finding out the hard way
Is the most essential concern

Ignoring your stubbornness and rebellion
Tolerating your bad moods
Still, I have never stopped caring for you
And have continued guiding you

I always stay by your side
No matter how hard it is for me
To please you and let you understand
What I have been going through
Though deep in my heart
I know how bad it must have caused you

My self-realization made me gather
The truth behind my mask
That even if it's a test of time
And solutions are sometimes hard to find
My strength makes me crumble
The weakness in the other side of my life

So confusing yet so grasping
So emotional yet filled with delight
Sometimes weakening yet full of hope
Sometimes bitter yet doing better
Sometimes morbid yet so fortunate

The joy and hardships of raising you alone
Gave me enough to teach me
How I could go on with life
Fatherless as you are
Paves way for me to accept
The providence that I have

For all those times of my stupidity
For all those years of my blindness
For all those dull moments that I had shared with you
For all those moments of my being unreasonable

For those unhappy days that you had with me
For all those unsatisfactory meals that I had fed you
Through all those rough times and those uncertainties that
You have suffered with me

They were all but part of what we had
And time can never erase
How difficult your life is with me
But what it can mend is the
Unpleasantness of my actions
And disorganized plans

This is my life and your life
Our most precious lives together
Though unhappily will be seeing you
With your own family someday
Leaving me alone in my own solitary world
Gives me the discomfort
Of growing old alone