My Prayer To End This Nightmare Poem by charlotte marie peachey

Wandering through this empty house,
Filled with belongings but all I feel is doubt.
The memories in my head are turning my stomach sour,
These video clips of you in my mind I could surely do without.

I’m begging to a higher power that I never thought was there.
Please take this away, I can’t bear it, it isn’t fair.
Salty tears run down and I taste them on my lips…
I don’t want to read the next line that is written on these scripts.

I fear I can’t do it, I fear I’m too afraid to live this life,
All I hear is you calling my name, out loud into the night.
You’re engraved in my memories, and nothing can wash you away
The only emotion I ever seem to feel anymore is fright.

Fright that you’re gone, yet fright that you’ll return
Either one simply makes my stomach churn
I hate you but I miss you, I’m losing my mind,
And soon, I fear there’ll be nothing left of me to find.

I feel like I’m fading away, lost to darkness,
And every task is too much to bear,
I lie awake at night, trying for slumber,
But all I see with these blank eyes is your sleazy stare.

Just someone, hear my prayer, make this pain bearable…
Because if it isn’t soon, I fear I may fade.
I’m trying so hard to keep living in this nightmare…
But I’m just so afraid.