My Sincere Apology Poem by jordan russell

there is so many things that I've done wrong
i wish i could take them back but i don't know if i can
i have apologized but i never meant it
i want us to move forward but you don't seem to forget and neither do i

we have both had our share of mistakes
i want to take them all back
but wanting is not going to make it happen
you always told me it's not about regret
but about remorse
even still today as i listen to your words i can't seem to help but regret somethings i have done to you

i have lied to you about numerous things
and some of them i am still lying about today
I'm scared to hurt you
i look at you and think of all you have done for me
if i live to be a hundred i know i would never be able to make this stuff up to you

do you remember that time we drove off the rode?
when you got locked up for a DUI?
well i still, even though i say i do, have never forgiven you for that
momma you don't understand how bad you scared me that day
you don't understand that i think about it everyday
if it weren't for me being in that car you could have died
i can't stand the thought of not seeing you everyday

there are some things we need to work on i know that for sure
and somethings need to be forgiven
i know it will take a lot of time
but i believe in us do you?

even though i say i don't, i really do love you
you are what makes me who i am
if it weren't for you i wouldn't be here
and i will owe that to you for the rest of my life

i guess what I'm trying to say is
this is my sincere apology
the one that i have been meaning to give you for a while