My Sun Poem by nayeli contreras

All thats left is a memory of a tear streaked face,
Is it possible that some pains hurt so much emotion cant escape?
Because if i couldn't handle this pain it wouldn't have been put in my life right?
why is it that this thing that runs through my veins numbs me?
Everyone else seems to smile at my misery.
Will there ever be a time when I can smile again and not feel a sharp stab to this useless heart?
Will there ever be a time where i get my inspiration from a grassy meadow or a beautiful flower or will this pain always be my muse?
The thing is that no one should have to live this they shouldn't hurt over something like love.
I walk down the crowded halls of this school,
I can swear that every tile on the floor is just another memory that awaits its turn to stab my heart,
If i look up, all the faces that I once thought were nice and not judgmental reveal their true selfs to me,
still i cannot help but search through those faces to find him,
to find the sun that would thaw out this now frozen world,
Because just when i thought the sun would never stop its light,
the suns rays faded away from me,
that sun which promised me it would be the last night i'd be alone abandoned me
If i could only know why this curse choose me.