Neither Reminisced Nor Remembered Poem by Lawrence S. Pertillar

It is better and much healthier,
On one's mind to accept a reality.
With a moving on,
To leave behind and not try to re-define,
A connection others may insist...
Still is effective for them and exists.
Especially whatever it is to feel or be felt,
Has not been known to have been shown...
To neither reminisce it nor remember,
As a priority to keep it discussed.

'I will always regard our relationship as valued.
Like it was 'back in the day'.'

~Back in what day? ~

'When we were young and close,
Like a family.'

~Well...
From my point of view,
Whatever that was you had valued...
Was not treasured to keep that way.
And...
Just how long ago,
Did we share those precious values? ~

'You don't remember when we were children?
And we together played? '

~You see this grey hair turning white on my head?
Did either one of us have that,
When we were 'children'? ~

'No.'

~Time and the experiencing of life,
Has long distanced me from my childhood.
With a growing up to age to accept.~

'I can't believe anyone can change that much.'

~Believe it.
It's okay to keep memories.
But don't expect me to relive them with you.
Expecting me to give it total recall.
Ssss...owww.~

'What was 'that'? What's the matter? '

~Just a pain shooting through my leg.
Wanting me to give it immediate attention.
THIS is one of many changes,
God has blessed me to have made.
And you talking about 'stuff' I've given up,
More than 50 years ago?
I'm not a flashback addict.~