Night Minds Poem by Abigail Hauschild

I've been trying to find the words
The ones that could explain this nebulous feeling
This connection with the universe
That only manifests when I'm alone
2 a.m. acts as a magnifying glass for my heart
It sheds light on my most intimate musings
The ones my waking-self did not know existed
It's peace but also an anxious anticipation
I'm calm but also bursting with passion
For ideas I have not yet fully formed
It's a sadness but it's the beautiful kind
The kind of ache that reminds me of the pain I've endured
But also that I've endured it
I wish I could bring you to this place inside my night mind
This nameless expanse of my soul
That remains a mystery even unto myself
If only because I know you would enjoy the scenery