No Guarantees With Uncontrolable Spinning Leaves Poem by Ace Of Black Hearts

So you think you know?
Oh do tell me which way the wind is gonna blow.
But that still doesn't mean the leaf will fall the way you want.
Be not forsaken by empty desires.
The stench is more rotten then burning tires.
Love is the forbidden fruit, never take bite unless it is truly for you.
Don't pretend to be just another one of those shoot stars.
Faking it never works my friend.
A extremely bitter ending.
Why do we only ever take pictures of the happy moments?
Why do we try to hide what is behind all these lies?
What are you really feeling the other 90 percent of the time?
What happen in the story book marriage, that is not up for show?
You don't have to tell me because I already know.
Remember I was there, or at least I was trying to be.
Then one day I got an introduction.
Meet my friends.
Threatening me because of what?
You leave every night and I'm stuck with not even my kids.
You come back drunk, and I'm the one left constantly sober.
Facing the truth.
I spoke up because I had enough.
You don't like it too bad.
I didn't care if you were cheating with someone or not.
That was not issue.
The fact was you were shirking your duty as a parent.
You knew it was fresh start for me.
I left everything for you.
And in the end you hung me out to dry.
And now your pissed off because I survived.
You expected me to come crawling back I'm sure.
Oh how these free spirits have this lure.
Go when and where they want as they please.
That was me when we first met.
And that was me after I left.
But while I was there I was completely grounded.
And in between all I heard is this constant screaming.
And no matter what you say it was never your children were bad.
It was because you had no patience.
A stressful environment.
Not once when I held you, and I looked in your eyes did you look back in mine.
A one sided promise, a fantasy.
I couldn't live the lie.
I'm sorry if that hurt you.
But you needed to know, what you gave up.
From what I hear you did a lot worse.
But it is not place to judge.
All I wish is you wouldn't drag the kids through constant bullshit.
But I have no say because there not my blood.
And apparently as far as the courts are concerned that is all that matters.
And maybe they are right.
But let me tell you, that doesn't change the abuse delivered from one hand to another.
They say it never happens that way.
But how many time was it?
Are you keeping count, I'm sure they are?
They are not stupid as much as you think they are.
They are, oh they are, something I couldn't watch fall apart.
Hurt, confused, to young too truly understand.
Spoiled rich girl ostracized from all of her family ties.
Living off the children's income to party and have fun.
One blind, another autistic.
You think my issue was that you told me to get out.
The day I went to pick up those pack of smokes.
I only had one thing on mind.
You were taking advantage of them every single way.
Booze coming out your pores.
You were mad I found someone to talk to while you gone.
Even though I knew her long before you.
She was like a big sister to me.
Not that you would understand.
So jealous making so many demands.
Making plans to go to college on there dime.
How truly sublime.
Advertise any way you want it.
But still your friends even saw it.
That is why they still talked to me even after I was long gone.
Treat people like shit long enough.
And eventually they get tire of it.
We are not personal property to used be like pawns in a long game of chess.
You do not get to tell me what to do.
No I have my own income, and I'm plenty happy without you.
I do not regret the choice I made, or bed I sleep in.
But I'm sure your kids do.
And of that I am sorry.
If I could of stop it I would have.
But unfortunately I do not have god like powers of persuasion.
But I think you might in the way of manipulation.
Never the less even if you have finally found me again, I will not be easily baited by the false promises of yesterday.