Not Real To Me Poem by Desiree Whitamore

do you see me?
do you hear me?
do you know how hard i fight?
please believe me
don't deceive me
when you keep me up at night.
i try to say whats on my mind
i try to make it right.
but lately
i'm going crazy
trying to be
just me.
i hear the way you talk to me, like you didn't act the same
i see the way you look at me, as i'm taking all the blame.
when you mean it, i'll believe it
dont you think i'll find a reason?
i won't ever know what you feel
cuz to me your not real.

its been so long so i may lose my faith a little
in this book that i'm writing, i might just make to the middle.
i'm so tired of being who everyone wants me to be.
i'm so tired of feeling the only feeling pushed on me.
if you can't be here
i'm not waiting
if you really don't care
i'm just saying
you might want to count your blessings that i've been around so long
if you think i wouldn't leave now, god you're just so wrong.
cuz you will never see
how your just not real to me.