Ocean To Fear Poem by Ashley Fortin

Live not in fear,
You do not live.

I have always wondered why?
Yet the answer comes all too clear,
We learn to trust,
We learn what we must.
But what to it if we do not fear?
Not one to ask why.

So I step off the sand shores into the licking waves,
As they lap away at the coloured rocks in swift slow movements.
So I seem to ask myself; What does seem so menacing to me,
That would keep me from the sea?
It would seem to me so childish that I could not ponder why?

And so I step farther into the water,
Letting the waves silently lick their way up my ankles and recede.
I stop to find myself half consumed by the water,
And the waves seem to have my hands drifting in front of me.
I feel so subtle standing alone in my fears,
I feel so calm and concealed as I listen to the sounds of silence.

And then as I look up above me to stare,
A white moon seems to take the stage in the star less night,
And as though I'm the audience my attention is hypnotized towards it.

Suddenly I am reminded of my place at this moment.
I am surrounded by it,
I am concealed by it,
I am drifting deep into it.

And then as swiftly as the waves had lapped the shore;
I was sucked under the deep black into the never ending darkness.
As my screams are muffled I look up to the sky from beneath the water,
With frightened eyes I seem to be sedated by the darkness,
And I slip into an unconsciousness....

My ocean to fear...
You have taught me so much...
but my love has betrayed me and I am no longer here...
My ocean to fear...
I will never resurface -
You have taken me whole and I am no longer here...
My ocean to fear...
Never love again but never love you again.

I am no longer here...
I am no longer here...
My ocean to fear has swallowed my soul
I am no longer here...