Old Friend Poem by Mundell Lomax

The one who causes my pain in the end
The main cause my sadness
Who is nothing but a reflection
Of my true feelings that lack a expression
I cry my eyes out until my head aches
But when people ask I say I'm doing ok
Why do i protect you from my family
Why do I hide you in a well designed fantasy
Behind doors in my mind
Not even noticing I do it naturally
Blaming myself for the hate that you create like a mastermind
Every plan thought out carefully
So deeply buried behind other emotions
That when looking for you I release a explosion filled with unspoken emotions
The truth is we have been together so long
That letting you go seems wrong
You disappear and reappear
But our relationship will be over this year
I hope I'm making myself clear
I'm done with you playing with my mind
I think it's time that I leave you confined
Forced to watch me leave you behind