Pain Poem by Mello Carson

Why can’t the world end here and now?
The pain becomes too much to bear.
I’m left screaming in the middle of nowhere.
My whole life has gone by
And I just wonder why
“What’s my purpose in this dying world? ”
The snow starts to swirl
But now the sun’s blazing hot,
And I hear a voice that says
“Worry not my child. Your pain shall soon end.”
The pain I’ve been living with all my life,
The pain I’ve caused others,
Hurt more to the love of my life.
And now she stands there seeing me cry.
All I do is cause pain.
Why won’t it end?
I’m living a lie.
With fake plastered smiles and fake tears of joy
Behind them are cries for help and tears of pain.
I try to be what everyone thinks I am.
But… the person who everyone thinks I am,
Doesn’t exist.
Why can’t they just see,
That I’ve become everything I never wanted to be?