Past Poem by just-max Max

When I think about my past I think about the pain that I got and the traumas that it left behind.

When I think about my past I just wanna disappear.

But when I think about that guy that cost me that trauma I wanna kill him. But I don't do it because I don't wanna be just like him because he killed me already from the inside.

So I let go of my pain by cutting myself. I know it's bad but how do I need to let go of my pain then.