Peek And Peer Poem by James Darwin Smith II

Peek into the soul of the voided
Null felt full of self-disdain
Mirror emptied
Heart paining
Spirits of residual dwellings
Haunting self within thoughts of yesterday



Feel each emotion
Cry out in utter chaos
Dying each day for no reason
All the while living in denial
Of what is going on today



Every day is every effort
To be as strong as strength can be
Striving to prolong positivity
Fighting to win against self-defeat



Doubts cast shadows
Too many causes visions to dim slowly away
Visions need visions
To see a bigger picture
In the scenery of feeling complete



Incomplete motions
Soak the tears of an uncertain tomorrow
Building blocks to a foundation hinging
On a structure durable and reliable
Always staying true no matter what is seen




See a smile and wonder
Is it shaped the right way?
A frown gives so much away
Laughter can be used to hide away the pain



Do they look down on the below?
Up on the higher than all mighty?
The trials of the human race




Words come out
They come out in waterfalls
Crashing down into a river of expression
Getting it out in an ocean full of emotions
Becoming waves looking for a much warmer place




The spirit uses water
To make form and shape
Getting everything out
Doing all the best
To make all the pain goes away



What if we only saw ourselves as energy?
Would the world be a better place?
Actions or lack thereof causes
Minds racing in many different ways
Faster and faster without thinking logical
In this the worst seems to always have its way




All is bittersweet
In dreams of what could have been
Deep down what could truly be
A certain sense of purpose
Rising out of a self-sixth sense reprieve




In this battle
One ponders on strong
Controlling his emotions
Lonely but willing to fight
For the right to be better
Than ever been before



I have fought many fights
Died a Ghost
To only end up living again and again and again



Peek into the soul of the unknown
Are you strong enough to never judge?
Mirror uplifted, Heart reassured and gifted
In knowing what the beauty of life has yet to give in need



I am just an independent contractor
To myself in the whole spectrum of great disarray
And I could not have it any other way



Smiling on
Waiting for what shall soon come my way
The Ghost of me has died
And the life of me is here to stay!



Do you understand where I have been?
Where I might go from time to time?
Judge these motives by action
And I promise all will be worthwhile



I have bled myself upon the grace
A new man in great strides
Walking proudly with many flaws
Never shall I force myself to ever live in denial



I express myself differently
There are those who will never understand
Yet, I find they are lost within their own realm
Of thought processions dragging themselves
Deep into their own scars
Voided upon their own wounded ways



But I feel for them
Or anyone else in great pain and decadence



The ghost of me still haunts me
But I battle on for a newfound glory
Being better than I have ever been
With the broken past
For which I have only started to make amends



Peer into my soul
Know who I truly am
Avoid a judgement's rush at all cost
Till this heart is felt
In the realm of my own universe
Where you are always welcome to join




Now can you see clearly?
You are now able to peer earnestly within me!


What do you truly think of me now?